Becoming Wholly One
This project has evolved over time. At its genesis, wholly.one was simply a way for me to learn and write about longevity, self-love, living a balanced healthy life, and as a place to organize notes on things I have learned. But, as time went on, I realized that the painful story behind my motivation to share was not unique to me, and was actually a source of stress and anxiety for countless people, both men and women.
The real story begins when I fell ill with a chronic and life-threatening infection that affected the way I functioned on a daily basis. I was in constant writhing pain. I suffered from horrible tinnitus, vision problems, headaches, doom-and-gloom feelings, thoughts of suicide, and so many more debilitating symptoms. I was sure I was going to die. What I did not know at the time was that this was going to trigger a sequence of events that would change me forever.
After a battery of testing, imaging, and ultimately a surgery and months of recovery, the immediate threat was over, but the proverbial boulder had already started to roll downhill. Over the next several years I would see my body, mind, and spirit struggle with some of the most difficult decisions, setbacks, and losses I have ever experienced.
The purpose and message of this blog are not intended as a warning, but rather as motivation for anyone who feels as though they are on the brink of collapse, or experiencing pannick attacks. It is meant for those who get ‘that feeling’ in in the pit of their stomach that not only is everything not right, but it's far worse than words can express.
If you continue you will read you things that have only been shared in the confidence of my counselors, family, and spiritual teachers. I'm normally a fairly private person, and in that respect, have been called the ‘quintessential Scorpio.’ With this in mind, I knew that if this website was to serve any purpose whatsoever, the stories had to be told. I began to think of this as a forum to discuss the things that so many of us suffer from; health concerns, spirituality, love, loneliness, loss, grief, guilt, etc.
I continue learning and healing on a daily basis. I've been introduced to new concepts, new ways to manage my emotions, and ancient techniques to maintain my one and only physical body. There was a point not too far in the distant past at which I had given up and was willing to leave the Earth should my health or mind fail me altogether. Now, I intend to live as long as this body will let me and I have formed a new alliance with my spirit and soul.
I encourage you to follow me on this journey. Perhaps you are on one of your own. Perhaps you see the path in front of you but haven't taken the first step. Perhaps those around you are concerned. Are you engaging in self-destructive behavior? Are you letting stress run your life and call the shots with your health?
I am not a medical professional. I am not a guru, or an expert on any of this. But what I am is a human being, and an inquisitive one with a huge heart and a gigantic capacity for love. You mustn't confuse what I write about with gospel or believe that I have the answers you seek. These are my experiences, this is my journey, and some or all of this may relate to yours as well.
In this blog, I will explain the timeline and the sequence of events that led me here and left me with the courage to share. If any of this is relatable, please leave a comment, for I hope that the community I'm trying to build can support one another. I will describe the steps I took, the resources I found, the advice I received, and the joy I have experienced in my journey to become wholly one with myself. I can describe my path to:
Self-Love (Foundational to the journey)
Whole-Food, Plant-Based Nutrition
Plant Medicine
Meditation and Mindfulness
Love of our Planet
I come from a place of boundless love, encouragement, and support for all.
